i CaN't OccUpY yR HEaRt aNYmoRE ... I Am fORgOtteN

2008-08-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

Pictures of koizora :] WARNING : THIS SHOW MAKE PPL CRY

sky of love

2008-08-29T05:12:00.000-07:00

Bought this VCD - koizora (sky of love) for $12.50 , featuring Yui Aragaki
and Haruma Miura . It is based on a cell phone novel that moved 20 millions to tears . Mika (Yui Aragaki) and Hiro (Haruma Miura) are in their first year of high school when they fell in love with each other. However, it did not last long. They break up in their second year. After the failure of her first love, Mika befriended and dated a university student, Yu (Keisuke Koide). During their first christmas together , Mika discovers a heart-breaking secret about Hiro. Btw, it is a japanese film. MUST WATCH :]

2008-06-08T23:13:00.000-07:00

Holidays are boring. Staying home for every single day, but i still got horror movies to watch ... hehehes (: i am addicted to horror movie now.

The doll master trailer

you will have nightmare after watching this (:

A moment to remember OST

this song and movie is awesome o.o i cried

17 May 2008

2008-05-16T18:49:00.000-07:00

Many ppl ask me why did i go and pierce my ears for. Some even called me ah lian. I am not ah lian. It's just that i wanted to pierce for fun and it's also because of him. I tot that once i go piercing, he would notice me (but he didn't). I tot that i would be much stronger and would not cry over him but it didn't happen. I still cried over him. I hate myself for being so stupid and pathetic. I even hate him more for not loving me. What more should i say... It's all because of him. I am doing all this for him and he don't even say anything or notice anything. It's just like i am an invisible person in front of him. I have no idea what should i do next... );

17 May 2008

2008-05-16T18:29:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time that i never look into your sweet beautiful eyes. On 150508, i saw you again and i wonder if i still love you. I still misses you even though i tried my best to forget about you. But you don't even seem to notice that i am drifting apart from you. It is sad to see that you don't even care about me. I will try to erase the memories of you from my mind as soon as possible.

memories of you would be buried deep deep down my heart -iloveyou-

12 May 2008

2008-05-11T18:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, weilin nvr go with me ... sadded ): I go out with daddy and went to pierce ear, buy this keychain (pic above), a cap for the camp and belated b'day present and card for giin yi. Sad lar...Weilin nvr go with me :( . Now stay home doing nothing ... Sianz ... (Btw,now the date is 12-05-08 and the time is 10.06 am . The blog's time is inaccurate de lor ...)

10 May 2008

2008-05-10T05:57:00.000-07:00

I am sick of pretending.
Accept me and i will stop lying.

I hate what i am becoming now. It is not my true self. I have no choice but to turn into this state .You. You are the cause for it. You care for no one but yourself. You only love yourself. I hate you but at the same time, i love you too . Stop acting like you don't care for others. Love me and care for me and i will return back to my happy old self.

10 May 2008

2008-05-10T05:50:00.000-07:00

So bOrEd At hOmE ... CaN't waIT foR tmR. GoInG OuT wITh Weilin ...(: edited my blog myself . Special thanks to other blogs i find on http://www.blogskins.com/ and this - clara . Thanks a lot.

9 May 2008

2008-05-09T00:14:00.000-07:00

Completed my examinations so i can start using my com and blog. Let me tell eu something : Firstly, some of the examination papers are quite easy but some quite difficulf but, now the important thing is to wait for my results and relax. Secondly, i think i am in love with a guy again ... this is called love at first sight but what is different is this guy is sec two (never like a sec 2 boy before ...) and he is quite cool and his smile is sooo ... aww... (no words to describe)
i also dreamt abt him [ hehehes :) ]
Shh ...Can't describe abt him anymore or ppl will start askng me :X ~lalala~
Secretly in love, hope this time will be successful ... Yes ! I finally forgot abt the 'he' person.

29 April 2008

2008-04-29T03:31:00.000-07:00

Today go sch on bus 81 and i saw a very handsome guy ...aww... wish that i had a bf like him ... hahahas (: At first i tot it was the no. 3 contestant from the channel u contest - eu are the one . The hair style the same lor ... heart-racing for a few secs (:
Got loads of homeworks for every subjects and then no more time to revise my work ... I am looking forward to my birthday (5/5) ! (: hehehes and after the exam , i want to go pierce earholes le ... the good image of me will soon disappeared and i will be a new person and lead a new life ... a life that will not be sad and lonely anymore ( jkjk >.< )

Soon, all the memories of you will fade off like the words on my shoes, which expressed my feelings for you, and i promised to myself that i won't add in more memories of you as my love for you will never have a happy ending .

I will stop posting until the exams are over so bye-bye .

I am heartbroken and i really really miss eu ...

26 April 2008

2008-04-26T00:27:00.001-07:00

I love this song.It is called still doll by Kanon Wakeshima.It is also the ending song of vampire knight.hehehes:) ~ you are leaving my sight as times goes by and u nvr tried to turn back and look at me even once ~ :(

26 April 2008

2008-04-25T23:49:00.000-07:00

yesterday night watched channel u - coma at 11.30 pm . Didn't expect it was a series but the storyline is quite interesting and some scenes caught me off guard ... The storyline goes like this : Behind the doors of Namwon Hospital lies a chilling secret, one that the hospital's inhabitants have kept buried for the last 10 years, and all centered around one coma patient. With the hospital's reputation steadily declining over the years, it is forced to shut down. Though as the hospital closes its doors, another opens, and secrets that have long been hidden are coming out with a vengeance...

24 April 2008

2008-04-24T02:19:00.000-07:00

Everyone is wearing a mask around me , including me . They pretended to be happy, angry, friendly, kind, sad, hardwoking, pissed off, and all kinds of emotion that you can name. Even i am pretending and no one would ever notice it, not even my parents. Or even the best friends that i ever had would know that i am pretending. To tell the truth, i hardly even laugh happily for a minute because once i laugh for a few seconds, i would think that it is not very funny so i stop laughing. Sometimes, i don't get what people are thinking about. They pretended to be friendly to you, talk to you almost everytime, try to make you laugh and so on ... but they actually hate you , dislike you ... I just don't get it . Can't they just tell the person that they hate the person and then they can stop being so 'nice' to the person ...

I am too tired to continue posting. Getting sick and tired of school. (hate it)

Today is an unlucky day to me , almost all the unfortunate things fell on me . I hate mysef and i even hate the weak and pathetic part of me ... I just feel like i am a dumbass, no one would accept me.

21 April 2008

2008-04-21T02:40:00.000-07:00

The very first thing i want to do now is to apologise to wen bin . I am so so sorry about what happened during the oral . I didn't mean it , i was just trying to ask eu wat the teacher said just now as i could not hear properly then the teacher called eu out . I am so soo sorry :( please forgive me ...

20 April 2008

2008-04-20T04:51:00.000-07:00

Today woke up at 7.30 am , got tuition . After tuition went to watch kidscentral . They were featuring 'click five' ... Yay ! Btw , i dun even know who the members in click five were but when i watch the show , i think that they are quite handsome and i like the song - kidnap my heart ... i also went to hear their song that cheryl recommended me . 'Empty' by click five ... quite sad but didn't cry ... hahahas :)

Everytime i write on my blog about my daily life , i feel like i am writing craps ... as if someone would my blog ... strange feelings ... dots (maybe i am talking to myself again). HopE to See yOu In SchOol tMr ... (: I am feeling a bit nervous now because of the english oral exam . Oh man , i hate oral ... have to face teacher and then talk ... Haiz ...

20 April 2008

2008-04-19T03:29:00.000-07:00

haiz ... very sian leh ... need to do homework and prepare for the upcoming exams ... haiz ... i think that our distance are further apart each day and idk that i still lyk eu a not ... complicated feelings in my heart ...

This morning woke up , dunno why chest starts to few a little pain ... Now feeling better . Is it because of him ? Nevermind ... i will stop thinking of him and soon forget about him . From morning 10 till 12 still doing the same maths homework with only 8 questions . I can't believe it ... i actually spent 2 hours doing my maths homework ! But the truth is , i watch television while i am doing my homework ... hahahas (talking to myself again) Feeling bored at home . went to take a nap around 2 and woke up around 4 . After waking up , i still need to do my other suject homework ... plz dun call me 'angswer sheet' alr as i am not so hardworking as eu all think i am ...

18 April 2008

2008-04-18T04:29:00.000-07:00

Every day , every minutes , every seconds , i will think of u . I just hope that u will never leave my sight . I love u but do u even like me ? Every day waiting for u to reply is equal to giving up on u . Hope that u can answer me . i need you , my sweetheart...:) i am desperate for love =)

18 April 2008

2008-04-18T02:44:00.000-07:00

18 April 2008

2008-04-18T02:08:00.000-07:00

Today got chinese oral exam ... so scared that i keep walking here and there ... i also took pictures of my left hand and shoes when waiting for my turn (use cheryl handphone)... hehehes ... when it was my turn i was so scared that i could not talk properly in front of the teacher ... Oh Man , after the oral , i was so pissed off and soo depressed that i ... (feeling shameful to even talk about it)... Luckily there are friends to cheer me up and i am feeling better now ... :) i am so pathetic !

17 April 2008

2008-04-17T07:05:00.000-07:00

hehehes ... i changed my blog totally and i promise that i will try to update my blog everyday ... so weilin dun complain that i never update my blog ... here i am now updating . Hehehes ... Feeling like a newbie now ... However , i feel so pathetic nowadays ... Should i like him , should i not ? ... Living in my own illusions ... Got scolded by different people - students sometimes because i kept looking outside my class window ... waiting for u to pass by my class or even the third level ... I just need a glimpse of u and i would be happy for the whole day ... ( i am crazy about him )
p.s. If u know the person that i lyk , plz dun say out the name coz i scared that he would visit my blog through links and see that this crazy girl here writing all about him ... i would be so dead ... hehehes :)

Story of a lonely gal ...

2008-04-17T06:56:00.000-07:00

Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.
Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,
And I want you to know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.
If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you ever notice me?
If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you even notice me?